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Valentine’s day. Sumuko siya.

Sabi nila, pag fresh pa daw yung sakit, isulat daw agad.

I’m struggling for a national competition. Pangarap ko ‘to, matagal na. I was one of the 6 handpicked by our Chairperson to represent our school for that competition, most prestigious in our career industry. It’s a privilege. It’s my dream, and I’m working hard for this. 

Today is the only day which everyone in the team can rest and celebrate. Bukas until next week, back to walang tulugan and strictly compliance of the meetings. Wala siyang ginawa. Oo, umasa ako na may surprise. First time ko sana na may ka-Valentine’s ngayon pero wala. First relationship ko kasi kaya big deal sakin yung mga ganitong occasion. Umasa ako na ngayon din niya ako bibigyan ng flowers. Sa 10 months namin, never pa niya ako binigyan. Hinintay ko ‘tong araw na ‘to. Pero wala.

Maaga akong gumising. 8:00am. Naligo ako 12 kasi may class ako 3-4:30pm. Naka-ready na susuotin ko. Akala ko kasi part ng plan yung last minute niya ‘ko saya in or susunduin niya ako after my class. 1:30pm uwian niya. Di siya nagtetext. May swimming training pa daw siya 3-5pm so hindi pwede. Hindi na rin ako pumasok kasi ayoko ma-bitter. Wala nga siyang plano. Natulog lang ako maghapon.

“Magbreak na tayo. Ayoko na” 5 words. 10 months. 

Eto bumungad sakin paggising ko. Panget ba ako? Naks, Liza peg. But really, I don’t know what to do. 6pm I found out that I failed in the licensure exam. I am pressured for the competition. I feel so little about myself. I am ashamed of what people will say. And this happened. Nakipagbreak siya sakin. Wala daw problema. Ayaw na daw niya. Siguro nga pangit talaga ako.

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